darknemisis
Member
A daily look into my personal life and my disorder. Out of the blue I begin to get hot as if someone poured hell upon my head, then I begin to sweat and sweat and sweat. My body begins to tingle as if I am being stuck by thousands of pins and then sudden numbness as my chest begins to tighten as if its caving in. My heart begins to beat and beat gaining speed as if it wants to leave my body, my blood pressure then begins to skyrocket and sends my head through a trap door of thoughts of death as if I am being taken from this earth. My eyes then decide to go fuzzy as if I am becoming temporarily blind and then it turns into tunnel vision. Yes I have a disorder and it controls me like i am a puppet on a string. My body trembles as if I am going into shock. No one around to ease me for hours, no one to talk to for hours... thoughts of dying surrounds me for that is what my body is telling me.... knowing that it will subside and eventually fade away.... it's like I am a DVD player stuck on repeat as for this happens everyday....ITS HELL......ITS PAIN.....ITS BODY CONSUMING...... ITS MY DISEASE....NOT YOURS