Ha ! That's one I'll never need, as that's what I see looking back at me in the mirror on a bad morning.
But honestly, that's a very impressive list to say the least. And crazy ? No, this stuff is probably what prevents you from going totally overboard. :lol
And a bit of crazy never hurted anyone.
In fact, quite the opposite as the worst catastrophes in human history were caused by people who took them selves far too seriously.
So if anything, you're a shining example in an already far too grey world.
Don't ever change that.